things change; they always will, evetually

Leona;

Ate Leona/Mykee. AAAAAAH! Idon’t kow, I feel sad. I miss her so bad. The last time we saw each other was, I think, last Christmas.. or November 1. :(

We talked about a lot of things. We talked about books and TV shows that we liked. We were supposed to have a “marathon”. Harry Potter, Big Bang Theory, kins, and American Horror Story. I’m deeply sad (what hanna) because nothing happened at all. She’stoo busy with her school stuffs and so am I. Sighh.

But this summer vacation, I haven’t heard anything from her. I want to talk to her but I don’t have the guts. She has friends there that are much better than me. I’m nothing but a boring human being that she will not enjoy ha ha ha well nobody enjoys me anyway because I think I am that boring. Well, shut up hanna.

Ahh, I just want to spend a moment with someone. I can’t talk to Arjane or Cha or Jonvier, Bea, or Rica. Just no. I don’t think they’d want to have a marathon with “me”. Duh. Who am I, anyway? Nothing. But I don’t know I just don’t feel like being with them. I feel like we have that “gap”.

Anyways…. Today is May 1, 2012. That only means that it has been a month since The Maine’s concert was held here (shit grammar). And I feel sad again because I miss them so much. Not only them but the amazing crowd, my fiends, and everything. All the feels. Earlier this day, uhm.. 1am to be specific. They had a Daytrotter Session. Yes, such a good way to celebrate our First month. It was, indeed, perfect even though it’s audio only. It’s just like they’re having a band practice and you’re creeping out in the window just to listen to them. Haha, okay seriously, I eve cried as hard as I did nung prom. ewww I still regret crying over that shit prom. I was stupid.

AND, also today, while watching Emmanuel clean the backyard. A car entered our territory (lol the word) I thought it was one of Emmanuel’s customer but not. I saw Tito Tupeng, God I ran like an elephant who didn’t eat for five years just to hug him. I was so overjoyed I didn’t even let him go right away. I feel happy hugging my uncles, is that bad? Well, later on he complains to us that CJ (my cousin, yayy fav cousin) has a boyfriend already. At first I was like (inside) “OH MY GOD?? REALLY I MEA SHE’S 13 AND IM 16 AND I DOTNT EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHAT AHAPPEND TO ME THAT KID IS LUCKY OMYG:” lol really. But I know that it was wrong. Yun pala yung dahilan kaya sya umuwi ng pilipinas. My family help my Uncele explain to CJ how it was -not easy-. I can’\t explain it anymore I feel lazy, shit. Basta. Okay, then I think CJ felt sad. She was crying. And i never let her go from my hug. I was telling her that’s it;’s okay. It’s gonna be fine and all. Sighh I feel sad for that kid. But she’s wrong too, I think. She’s wayy too young ad ugh… I don’t know anymore. Pardon me. I want to stop writing know.~

So that happened, my uncle gave me 1k.Yayy books, wait for me. Willow, wait for me. I also thought of doing things with CJ, like that marathon. But that seems so impossible. So yeahhh

Gonna do marathons with Hanna again! I’m forever with hanna, I wish I could just marry her. Lol really~

sobyeyeeee

1.1.12

28th Apr 2012

somebody to call my own;

holla! look, im wrting again!what sorcery is this? lol kidding.

today was pretty cool; athough it’s smokin’ hot out there and you wanna take your shirt off. yeah

i woke up with a strange dream, i was asleep in my bad in my dream, i opened my life and closed and opened it again then boom, reality. i felt like ineeded more sleep because my mind wasn’t really working well and my eyes just opened and shit. i manage to put myself on my mom’s bed i lyed there for awhile and watched bitoy on TV. i kinda took a shirt nap too. i got up, dresses and went downstairs. saw my dad on his chair, my mom cooking. same thing, everyday.

i can’t wait to have films in my hands and printsssss. aw man that’s be great. i can’t wait to have a pair of DMs too, well i still dont know where i’ll get a pair. well… im excited. tomorrow we’ll go to cabanatuan for mommy thell’s surprise party cause it’s her birthdayyyy. yayy

uh.. one more things.about canada. nocanada for me at ALL. man that is rude :(( i really had my expectations for this may because i really wanna see the maine again uh but they didn’t tell me anything. oh well okayyy but you guys disappointed me.

it almost 2 am. how great how time flies so fast. now sleepless nights, tomorrow school and projects, exam and quizzes.

wish me luck for everything. okay byee love you blog ex

-hanna the great

4.29.12

27th Apr 2012

Charlene told me that swearing isn’t that bad.~

27th Apr 2012

realized i bad i am when i said i believe in god but swore 12310923x in a blogpost WOW just wow

27th Apr 2012

rainbows and unicorns;

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“what should i write about” then a friend suggested this. Why Not. I told myself earlier that I should write today, because I’m going back to my old self being lazy and ignorant about everything. Well I’m still an asshole. I do the same things, say the same things and overact like a bitch. Well, that’s hanna’s life! Lol idk how do you do change? I don’t kow…. Maybe I’ll change on college? But hey I’mgoing to college already, class starts on June 4. Nah whatever i don’t care…

Oh my God, shut up about this hanna. Time will come.

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Today was.. uh just another day. Another life to be thankful for.
I woke up around 11, get dressed to my typical -tshirt+shorts-. It’s always like this. I went downstairs only to fin my mom cooking,my sister playing, my grandpa sitting on his chair. I didn’t say a word. I grabbed the Basic Accounting book Ate Abhie gave me the other day. “Wow, I’m reading an accounting book”i said to myself. the book was thick. im hoping to finish it as the vacationgoes on.

(i dont want to properly tyep anymore because this keyboard being an asshole and probably no one’s gonna read my shit)

i stopped reading because i got tired (wow history palang ng accounting suko na ko) then we atelunch; i washed the dishes; gave my grandpa a pedicure; gave myself nothing; cleaned the back yard; played with the puppies (god i remember seeing our dog making out with some neighbor’s dog, i was with a friend and it was gross…now he has puppies,cute babies yeah); chit-chat with the family; ate dinner; did the dishes; watched tv. oh naabutan ko yung HIMYMsa 2nd Avenue. aww kaso patapos na how nice; then i watched dong -.-; bubble gang,best ever.;the poooof im here!;

god what did i just type?i suck at typing right know, and thinking.because im just not really in mood but because i just think i need to write this

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rainbows;

Hope. these are the things or people that motivates you to not give up and to always believe in yourself; I’m asking myself, who’s your hope? So many people. God, family, friends. I can all be a bitchbut I belive in God no matter what, I just don’t get some religions and other stuffs. Family, my mom is the best even though sometimes she’s just a bitch and I couldn’t take it. But she’s the bestand I will always love her. frineds;well. some do. some dont.i dont know. well by the end of this blog it;s probably full of well.well i fuckng hate typing right now because this keyboard is being an ass. damn it

unicorns;

i dont know. what do unicorns symbolize? uhmm. idk. unicorns are cool ad they make me happy. oh remember when my unicorn pooped gold so i could watch all time low’s concert? yeah. Oh, I think Unicorns are the thing you’ll hold on to. and you’ll love them even if it hurts the shit out of you and thye make you cry. Well, hello Papa Joseph. Here’s what tell you. I love you. I love you,i really do. You don’t know how much i try to control myself when i see daughter+dad having fun togther at malls, schools, or everywhere. Well you suck, you know that, but i love you. Do you regret having sex with my mom 9 months before March 19, 1996? Ye okay then but i want you to know that i would like to show you trhat you must not regret it because you’ll love me (i hope you will after 4 or 5 years)(i dont understand myself anymore i’ll just fix this anytime soon fuck). Goddd i feel like crying. damn it UNICORNS. joseph, when i fucking message you on facebook saying hi or just simply asking you how are you, it doenst fucking mean that i fucking want your money. damn it makes me really really sad that i think you think i am like that :((( WELL EXCUSE ME BUT NO. I COULD STRAVE TO DEATH pero diba I JUST FUCKING WANT YOUR ATTENTION I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU’VE BEEN ORIF YOU'RE STILL ALIVE. IF OUDONT LIKEME ANMAN THEN UNFRIEND ME OR SOMETHING oh my godi dont want to write anymore. wait but joseph i want you to kow that i love you if you dont love me or likeme then okay; i have a lot of uncles to be my dad.

this is getting shitty, yeah. i fucked up again but lol okay dont care.damn it

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so have a slutty latest photo of me; i could be a porn star someday!!!!